We got the results back on Friday’s ultrasound today… Baby Burton is healthy!!!

The doc says, “Fetal heart rate is 163bpm. Mean crown-rump length of 6.5 cm corresponds to an estimated gestational age of 12 weeks 6 days which is consistent and concordant with the clinical dates. There is no herniation of midgut. Amniotic fluid volume is subjectively normal.”

The hernia/slight protrusion on Baby B’s belly was physiologic as they suspected and is completely gone now. All that’s left is a perfectly round, adorable baby belly 🙂

I have to say, the past 2 weeks have been pretty rough as I’ve been feeling pretty bad, caught a stomach bug, and been worrying about the insides of our baby being born on the outside. Yes, I googled Omphalocele even though the doctor said not to, but I couldn’t help myself. I wanted to know what could potentially be wrong with our little nug. Worst mistake ever. I shared with our friend Kelly, who’s a nurse, what I found and her exact response was, “First breathe” then “Google will scare the sh*t out of you, guaranteed… Instead of fear, focus on reality!” She continued to encourage me by saying that we don’t need visual reminders of every single possibility during this beautiful chapter in our life. (thanks KellBell)

It’s super easy to let your mind get lost in the what-if’s of the world. Unfortunately, Google only fuels the what-if fire and stokes the imagination with photos, articles, and WebMD. I had a total cry-fest moment as I was folding laundry last week looking at the size of my shirts and pants. My mind began to wander to the what-if’s of my physical looks and what the future would hold for the shape of my body. As the tears started to roll down my face, Brice looked at me and lovingly reminded me of a few amazing things:

• As I transition from wife to wife & mother – I will only get sexier
• We don’t know what the future holds and that it’s pointless to worry about something that might or might not
• His biggest wish for us right now is that we enjoy each moment together and enjoy everything that pregnancy has to bring and not worry what the future will look like.

At the root of my what-if fears is the desire to be in control. I wanted to be in control of our baby and make the insides go back in so I looked up reasons Omphalocele happens and if the mom could do anything different to change the effects. I want to be in control of my body and how it looks so I started thinking of ways to workout with a baby i.e. baby lifting.

I’m thankful for the reminder from Tim Chester, author of You Can Change, who wrote – “God is great – so we don’t have to be in control.” This is such a liberating truth about God. I’m so glad that I don’t have to be in control of everything because I would definitely suck at it, panic, and worry. Thankfully, I believe in a Creator that IS in control of everything! Clearly He’s in control as Baby B is totally fine!! As we enter into the second trimester, Brice & I plan to take things in strides and enjoy each moment of the miracle of pregnancy. Even though things can be pretty scary, crappy, and tiring, I’m excited to have such a strong partner and friend to enjoy this journey with as B²  Adventures becomes B³ Adventures!

-Beka