I’m excited. For some reason, I haven’t said that out loud lately. Well, the first part of that is a lie. Deep down I know the reason.

Have you ever been afraid of something but feel horrible for admitting the reasoning behind the fear because in your heart you know it’s irrational and all a lie?

I’m afraid.

I’m afraid that if I say I’m excited to move back to Kentucky to start a nonprofit, the nonprofit that I’ve spent the last two years of my life pouring my soul into will think that it wasn’t important enough.

I’m afraid that if I say I’m excited to move back to Kentucky to be closer to our families, the Washington family we’ve grown to love over the past six years will feel that they didn’t meet our needs or weren’t good enough.

I’m afraid that if I say I’m excited to move back to Kentucky because the cost of living is lower and we’ll be able to pay down some debt that people will think we manage our money poorly or didn’t make enough.

All of these things are lies. Everything in our life in WA was more than enough. It doesn’t hurt to take risks. The last risk we took (moving to WA) turned out pretty awesome. Moving to KY is a risk we were willing to take because we’re excited about the future!!

It’s not to say everything will be easy, because it definitely won’t. But I’m so so excited for this new adventure – one of the things I love most. And any adventure, for me, is more than enough!

*We’ve had a blast the past couple of weeks hanging with our family. We spent a week in Louisville with Brice’s brother, then drove to Allentown, Pennsylvania for a week to hang out with my family, then headed to Somerset, Kentucky as our final destination on this month-long adventure. We’re couch surfing at Brice’s sisters’ house until our house is ready for us to move in on Monday!*